Apr 1SleeplessLast night was one of those nights when its either too hot or too cold and you have to suffer for the weathers indecisiveness. I couldnt sleep and turned over every time the weather decided to switch it up, kept thinking about whats happening and telling myself Im insane then…2 min read
Mar 11Bad dreams.(An old diary entry) I am plagued by bad dreams. Most days I wake up exhausted from bad dreams, that leave a lingering bad taste in my mouth and no matter how many times I brush my teeth it stays not letting me forget. Everything I loved is gone. The…Baddreams2 min read
Dec 21, 2021An ode to griefMy grief is like a boulder sitting in my stomach, growing with each passing day. Sometimes, when I roll over at night, it rolls over as well and shifts the pain from my heart to my leg to my groin, and I wake up because it hurts so much, I…Grief2 min read
Dec 6, 2021Gentrification of Pakistani Sub-CulturesHow do we forgive those who refuse to see, who choose to live in their bubble at the cost of gaslighting all those outside it. By dismissing the pain of millions to have a guilt free aesthetically pleasing,instagram feed. A sanitized presentation of our subcultures, dhabas without swarms of flies…Subaltern2 min read
Nov 12, 2021Ugliness is all thats left.Today I tried to play my flute after a long time, and at the first Kharaj a sound so ugly and wretched came out that I almost threw the flute at the wall. The loss of the beauty of the sur was so heartbreaking and cruel, the awful off note…Classical Music3 min read
Jun 30, 2021The Sinister Designs of PatriarchyA few days ago I accompanied a friend to buy hiking shoes for our trip. As she tried on different fits I wandered around and ended up in the children’s section of the store where I often got shoes as a little girl. It was a local brand shop that…Patriarchy3 min read
Jun 10, 2021How aggressive Palestinian activism in Pakistan is our guilty conscience overcompensating for the apathy and indifference towards injustice at homeEvery time I open Facebook or Instagram it is flooded with posts of Gaza being bombed, of protests and demonstrations, people calling out those who are not posting about it, posts of neutrality when an issue of morality is at stake. Posters stating Hitler should have lived longer. Anti Semitic…Oppression3 min read
Jun 7, 2021Why We Can’t WaitRevisiting the monumental text on racial justice in America and how it can help us better understand the Women’s oppression and movement for equal rights in Pakistan 2021 witnessed the fourth Aurat March in Pakistan and not much seems to have changed since its inception in 2018. In fact the…Auratmarch7 min read
Feb 27, 2021Banality of ExistenceThere is a lingering unease. It is my second day at work and this is my first time experiencing the banality of the corporate world so intimately. There are five people on my team, all slightly odd. Odd in regards to their insufficient existence. The ordinariness is appalling, scary even…Corporate2 min read
Feb 24, 2021DhoorLahore these days is like a post apocalyptic scene from a horror movie. Everything is hazy and grey. As if sensing the end one after the other, the stars, birds and colors have disappeared. As I drive down Noor Jahan road towards main Boulevard I cant see a single color…Smog3 min read
