19 hours agoHeartbreakThere is heartbreak in the dew drops clinging to the window on winter mornings. In the scatter on the table, the pile of clothes on the chair. In the whites of my hair, in the tangles of yours. In the dark cloud above your head, in the darkness around mine…1 min read1 min read
Sep 15, 2022What is a woman to do?How does a society that has always kept me in its fringes, never given equal status and share in privilege, expect me to choose it when given a choice? How do I devote my life, to upholding a systems values, principles and aspirations when it does not even consider me…Partriachy4 min readPartriachy4 min read
Aug 29, 2022MotherMother. You ask why I dont speak. Why I wont say something to you. Why I am this way now. Mother. There is an ocean of pain and hurt between us. Any words I have, give up half way through my mind, refusing to become sentences. If they do, refuse…Mother2 min readMother2 min read
Aug 24, 2022Kashmir: Of Love and ResistanceWe happen to return from The Struggle’s Political School on 14th August, the day of Pakistan’s alleged independence. …Kashmir7 min readKashmir7 min read
Jun 22, 2022Greyed grief.I cant tell one hurt apart from the other. It has all coalesced merged into one shapeless form and when it hurts it all hurts at once. Sometimes it drives me mad to a point of exasperation and I just want to be able to pin it down and shoot…Grief2 min readGrief2 min read
Apr 1, 2022SleeplessLast night was one of those nights when its either too hot or too cold and you have to suffer for the weathers indecisiveness. I couldnt sleep and turned over every time the weather decided to switch it up, kept thinking about whats happening and telling myself Im insane then…2 min read2 min read
Mar 11, 2022Bad dreams.(An old diary entry) I am plagued by bad dreams. Most days I wake up exhausted from bad dreams, that leave a lingering bad taste in my mouth and no matter how many times I brush my teeth it stays not letting me forget. Everything I loved is gone. The…Baddreams2 min readBaddreams2 min read
Dec 21, 2021An ode to griefMy grief is like a boulder sitting in my stomach, growing with each passing day. Sometimes, when I roll over at night, it rolls over as well and shifts the pain from my heart to my leg to my groin, and I wake up because it hurts so much, I…Grief2 min readGrief2 min read
Dec 6, 2021Gentrification of Pakistani Sub-CulturesHow do we forgive those who refuse to see, who choose to live in their bubble at the cost of gaslighting all those outside it. By dismissing the pain of millions to have a guilt free aesthetically pleasing,instagram feed. A sanitized presentation of our subcultures, dhabas without swarms of flies…Subaltern2 min readSubaltern2 min read
Nov 12, 2021Ugliness is all thats left.Today I tried to play my flute after a long time, and at the first Kharaj a sound so ugly and wretched came out that I almost threw the flute at the wall. The loss of the beauty of the sur was so heartbreaking and cruel, the awful off note…Classical Music3 min readClassical Music3 min read
